Feels great to be back |
Here's where it gets real interesting...
I flew with my usual instructor today, a highly experienced flying instructor who is notorious for setting extremely high standards for above-average or young students seeking a career in aviation (aka me, for the career in aviation part, I am in no way above-average). Despite the harsh style of teaching he uses on aspiring career pilots (In my case, flight instructor, it's even harsher for me), I learn a lot through his teaching. It's an absolute pleasure to be able to fly with such an instructor.
After a preflight and re-fuel we kicked the tires and light the fires, for the first time in 3 months I turn the key to START and the engine fired right up like a beauty. It was pretty unexpected given the heat. Since it had been 3 months since I've flown, it took me a while to reacquaint myself with taxiing and handling the Cessna 172 on the ground. Anyone here who flew a 172 with a slightly loose nose-wheel bungee will get what I mean. I stopped the aircraft on the undershoot area to do the run-ups, surprisingly the flow of the run-up checks fell quickly back into my hands. A quick check of final approach and I lined up with the runway. Heels to the floor, full power. As the aircraft accelerates I checked that the RPMs are holding, temperatures and pressures are in the green range and that the airspeed is alive. The takeoff conditions today were rather anaemic, with the airspeed indicator slowly crawling alive. The density altitude was calculated to be at 2500 feet AMSL, which was higher than anything I experienced in my short flying career.
The rate of climb was just hanging around 700 feet per minute, which is slow compared to what I experienced back when the temperatures were lower. Airspeed was barely hanging on at 80 KIAS, the best rate of climb speed. However the first circuit seemed completely fine. Remembering what many instructors have said to me, I kept a relaxed grip on the controls during the approach to landing and my first landing was acceptable other than a balloon, which made it unable to be classified as anywhere near "Good." It seems that after these months I have lost the feel for the Cessna 172, and ended up being more jerky on the controls. The subsequent circuits were nothing short of disasters in my opinion. Approaches were nice and stable, airspeed control was pretty decent however the same issue occurs every time. I always ended up flaring too low and all that ground effect plus the fast pull on the controls caused me to balloon, and enter a sort of PIO (Pilot-Induced-Oscillation). I overcompensate for the recovery and "Bang!" I hit the deck hard on my main gear, and to be dreadfully honest with you I have never felt a landing so hard in my life. Some strong language was heard among both of us, and we did another normal landing and tried again. Second one was marginally better, at least my spine didn't feel like it broke under what felt like +5Gs.
After a decent glide approach and a half-decent engine failure after takeoff with runway simulation the instructor decided to hop out and let me go solo for one circuit. It was approaching the end of our booking. After the pre-solo formalities and reminders, he stepped out with his headset and I looked backwards as he walks away and I am left alone in this sweltering cockpit. As he cleared my prop wash I ran the engine up to 1800 RPM for a run-up while monitoring the radio. As expected more aircraft came piling in, attempting to join the circuit to land. I began to think about my performance in my pre-solo check, and as a Pilot-In-Command I shouldn't let anyone else make my decisions for myself, and remembered that a solo-send was only a recommendation. I reflected on the multiple times I lost situational awareness in the circuit, and also I began to realise that my mind wasn't even "there", completely in the cockpit and focused on flying due to some events the past week that greatly affected me as a person and a pilot. I was also dehydrated and my mouth was dry, I decided the situation requires too much situational awareness that I simply didn't have. I failed the "S" in the IM SAFE checklist, which stands for stress.
Just as I was about to announce on the radio that I was going to return to parking, flight operations came onto the radio reminding me that my booking has ended. Perfect, I thought, just as I was about to scratch a solo myself I have an official excuse to scratch it. I always thought scratching and saying no to a solo flight under supervision of instructor is somehow a "waste," today I discovered that it simply wasn't true.
I stopped the aircraft just outside of the parking bay and pulled the mixture, the propeller slowed down to a stop. My instructor opened the door asking me what's up, I wondered if I should say the truth that is within my head or the "official" excuse. I chose the official excuse, and in retrospect it was rather stupid but nonetheless he found out. During the debriefing we talked about numerous aspects and issues of my flight, despite that he still said something I couldn't believe, "Out of everyone who did their recency today and yesterday, you were among the two of the best."
That was when I gathered up the courage to swallow my ego and break the news that an event caused a lot of stress on me and I was going to scratch the solo either way. All I can say was the event affected me greatly, and will not disclose the nature of the event. I thought he was going to say I wasted the booking, after all he is extremely strict and passionate about my flying. However he responded with understanding and sympathy, and said that knowing how to say "no" to a flight is a valuable skill. Remember that a solo send is not a command, it is only a recommendation and any student should be comfortable saying no, because I can guarantee you that your instructor will understand no matter how demanding and harsh. We are humans after all, we aren't robots.
That's why human performance and limitations are so important, and take it seriously and apply it seriously. Make good decisions and don't be ashamed to cancel it.
It was great to fly again after 3 months, I will take a break next week and the week after I should hopefully be back up in the air solo.
Have fun, fly safe!
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Howard